Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Yes I am still here

A bit over whelmed by life at the moment but I am still here. I have been running around like a crazy woman for a week preparing for Bruce's visit. I am getting things accomplished and my list is almost done which makes me happy.

Bruce will be here in less than 48 hours and will be here for 10 days. It has been a long time, a very long time since I have allowed myself to become excited about anything or anyone for that matter. I look forward to a very relaxing time just getting to know one another face to face.

I have been trying to be optimistic and hopeful and in some instances I have succeeded, but at times I have to fight the feeling of being insufficient. I rarely feel as if I have done enough, as if I AM enough. I try very hard to be secure in myself yet insecurities seem to define my life. I really do not know what the future holds for me but for now, for right now I feel as if anything is possible.