Bruce will be here in less than 48 hours and will be here for 10 days. It has been a long time, a very long time since I have allowed myself to become excited about anything or anyone for that matter. I look forward to a very relaxing time just getting to know one another face to face.
I have been trying to be optimistic and hopeful and in some instances I have succeeded, but at times I have to fight the feeling of being insufficient. I rarely feel as if I have done enough, as if I AM enough. I try very hard to be secure in myself yet insecurities seem to define my life. I really do not know what the future holds for me but for now, for right now I feel as if anything is possible.