Thank you for your endless love, that helps me through each day, and thank you for the memories that never fade away. Though now your gone you'll always be the one who chose to marry me. Like a flawless red rose, our love for each other will forever be precious and rare.
You’re the man I loved and I was proud to be your wife, and every day in some small way I celebrate your life. And though it’s sad to think about the way that things were before, when we’re re-united it will be forevermore.
Happy Anniversary my Darling Steve. I love you, I miss you, I wish I could be with you to celebrate our special day.
Sunday, September 13, 2015
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Sunday, June 28, 2015
My "New" Life
I became a widow on December 25, 2014. Since then I have gained 40 pounds of the previous 53 pounds I had lost. We had only been married for 3 months and had been together for 3 years.
I don't care about what I look like, just getting out of bed, going to work and coming home has been a struggle. I have no desire to work but since we had purchased a new car in October and moved into a new apartment on December 1st I have no choice. I am barely sleeping. I have no desire to exercise as this was something we always did together and I am physically and emotionally just to tired.
I am an emotional eater. For the last six months all I have ate is fast food, snack cakes, potato chips and I drink Pepsi by the gallon. This was something that I had learned to control in my previous weight loss journey, but with his death all control went out the window. Before his death I was drinking 100 ounces of water daily and now water is just something I bathe or swim in.
Today I made a conscious decision that it is time to make a change. I feel horrible, I look horrible and I am almost back to my starting weight from 2011. I said I would never be here again and yet here I am sitting looking at 300 pounds in the very near horizon.
I am sure there will be lots of stumbles, slip-ups and tears while I try to figure this process out again. I know I can do this I have done it before. I also know I can not do this without the support, friendship and love of you folks that are going through this weight loss journey also.
My Short Term Goals
1. Walk 20 minutes a day 5 times a week.
2. Drink 64-70 ounces of water a day.
3. NO SODA
4. No eating after 8:00pm.
5. Lose 10 pounds. (286.6 starting weight)
I don't care about what I look like, just getting out of bed, going to work and coming home has been a struggle. I have no desire to work but since we had purchased a new car in October and moved into a new apartment on December 1st I have no choice. I am barely sleeping. I have no desire to exercise as this was something we always did together and I am physically and emotionally just to tired.
I am an emotional eater. For the last six months all I have ate is fast food, snack cakes, potato chips and I drink Pepsi by the gallon. This was something that I had learned to control in my previous weight loss journey, but with his death all control went out the window. Before his death I was drinking 100 ounces of water daily and now water is just something I bathe or swim in.
Today I made a conscious decision that it is time to make a change. I feel horrible, I look horrible and I am almost back to my starting weight from 2011. I said I would never be here again and yet here I am sitting looking at 300 pounds in the very near horizon.
I am sure there will be lots of stumbles, slip-ups and tears while I try to figure this process out again. I know I can do this I have done it before. I also know I can not do this without the support, friendship and love of you folks that are going through this weight loss journey also.
My Short Term Goals
1. Walk 20 minutes a day 5 times a week.
2. Drink 64-70 ounces of water a day.
3. NO SODA
4. No eating after 8:00pm.
5. Lose 10 pounds. (286.6 starting weight)
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