2007 has left the building

Hello Everyone! I've been sick in bed with a bad cough, sore throat, low-grade fever, chills, the works. Did you know that giving birth makes you lose control of your bladder when you cough, sneeze or laugh hard?

Nice visual, huh?!

While laying around in bed with my thoughts I started thinking back on this year and where I have been. Of course, the most important thing that happened to me this year was meeting the kind, caring, wonderful man that I now call my fiance, Bruce. The last 4 months with him in my life have been wonderful. His love has brought wholeness to my life. He is simply amazing. Hopefully, soon we will not have so many miles separating us.

Overall 2007 was one of the hardest years of my life - there was far too much sickness, uncertainty, and unnecessary stress. There are a few things I wouldn't want to be without from this year, yet I would not like to go through this year again. Life has been to painful this year and now I gladly bid 2007 farewell.

Moments

There are days in this life I lead, in which I can only wish for them to never end.

There are days in this life I lead, in which I find myself weary, weary of feeling.

Our lives are filled with moments. So many moments.

We wish for the joyful moments, dream of them, ache for them.

In recent months, my moments have been filled with joy, sadness, love, despair, relief, fear, dread, angst, hilarity, laughter, small smiles, and many more tears than I have ever wished to shed.

As I pause to examine these moments of my life, many have made me weary and I have wished for them to leave me. But, upon closer examination, each of these moments, no matter how draining, have been filled with gifts.

The gift of self-knowledge, the gift of knowing I am loved, the gift of faith in myself, the gift of hope, the gift of dreams, so many more gifts I am unable to name.

These moments of my life have allowed my to see more clearly.

Fear is not my enemy, it is my teacher, I grow stronger each time I face a new one down.

Tears are not my enemy, they cleanse my soul, and enable me to face another day.

Anger has not visited me recently, I am hoping it does not, but if it does, I will not view it as an enemy, but as one more lesson of life that I must learn from.

I know there will be many, so many moments in future days and months to come, when my emotions will run up and down the scale. Moments I will wish out of existence.

But, there is also a fragment of my soul, or perhaps a small glittering light in my heart, that allows me to know there will always be moments, albeit often infinitesimal ones, but, there will be moments of peaceful contentment.

Merry Christmas Everyone

Wishing you the true gifts of Christmas, special moments shared with family, good times filled with laughter, and memories that warm the heart and last forever.