Just Start Somewhere

How dare my body betray me. Something that belongs to me, from within me, is rebelling against me. I made the decision to stop my treatment for my rheumatoid and psoriatic arthritis due to all the unbearable side effects. I knew there would be a recurrence of the pain at some point and I prayed it would not get as bad as it was 2 years ago. I am having joint pain again (ankles and wrists are the worst) leg cramps, and some abdominal discomfort. 

Over the last 2 years I have gained back 30 pounds of the 57 pounds I previously lost. I have made the decision to rejoin the gym and start my healthy eating once again. It is going to be a hard upward battle with my body betraying me at every turn but I have to do this and work through the pain. I am hoping once I start dropping the weight again my pain levels will improve. I am doing this for my health and I must be realistic about what my current body can do. Start small, realize the success, and then move onto more changes. All of the little changes add up and hopefully the impossible becomes doable.