First Weekend on my Journey

The weekend usually is the deal breaker with me when I am attempting to lose weight. You are at home for like 60 hours with access to a kitchen full of "evil food" just calling you to come get it. Yes that evil PIE is still on the counter and NO I still have not gave in to its constant calling.

I slept in late this morning (9:30am) and got up sick at my stomach and barely able to walk. My legs were so sore from yesterday (No Pain No Gain... wait shouldnt that be No Pain No Loss) but as I moved around they got better. I bought three books from Amazon. "Secrets of a Former Fat Girl" , "100 Days of Weight Loss" and "Life is Hard, Food is Easy". I can't wait for them to get here next week. In the meantime, I broke out my Biggest Loser book looking for recipe ideas. There are a few things I am going to attempt to make. While thumbing through the book one particular quote stuck in my head. "You've got to get up every morning with determination if you're going to go to bed with satisfaction".

I am continuing to move forward. I'm just taking it one day at a time and I'm doing the best that I can each day. That is all a person can do. I am really having trouble focusing today. I have started dinner, and I am sitting here with a headache. After dinner I am taking a 30 minute walk with my husband and Kody since I have done absolutely NO exercise today. Well ok I have went up and down the stairs 4 times does that count??

Tune it tomorrow for my first official weigh in!!

One Step at a Time

I realize that this journey I have started is not about being on a diet, it is about learning to live a healthier lifestyle. Its about me. I did this to myself, I am the only one who can fix it. There is no quick fix, no one else can do it for me. I have to do it for ME! Failure is not an option this time!

Some days are harder than others but we are all human right? Today was HARD I am not going to candy coat it (Oooooo candy...no wait bad bad bad) I went to the gym with my husband and I worked out for an HOUR! I did 30 minutes on the stationary bike and 30 minutes on the thread mill. I actually DID it, I sweat, I almost cried, I felt like I was going to puke and pass out BUT I kept going and I made it. I thought the people at the front desk were going to call a ambulance when I flopped in the chair by the front door to wait on my husband to get out of the locker room. Now really am I the only FAT chick who works out here? I am sure you have seen other people crawl to their car.

I made it to the car and then we had to make a stop at the grocery store. Grocery shopping is a nightmare still! They place all this very unhealthy, addictive, cheap, stuff right inside the front door! Great I have to look at potato chips and cookies just what I want to see. One cookie my whole last hour is thrown out the window! I make it past the "on sale evil goodies" and this employee greets us with raffle tickets. Its customer appreciation day and if we call your number you win a prize. Ok whatever I want to get my ground turkey and squash and get the heck home and in the shower.

I got my squash, some zuchini, some fresh corn on the cob and my ground turkey. All the sudden over the loud speaker they call out some numbers. Woooo Hoooo my husband won something! He goes to the front, spins a wheel and is presented a coupon for.....YOU WILL NEVER GUESS!!!

A FREE PIE! Dayum!! Come on!!! Really??? A PIE?? (shaking head)...

We came home, we got showers and my wonderful husband cleaned the kitchen. After I recovered from my excursion to the gym we started dinner. He grilled chicken and I cooked the squash and corn on the cob. Dinner was wonderful and very filling. As I was taking my plate to the kitchen the evil pie was sitting on the counter calling me. I could just go over there and get some pie and say I'll do better tomorrow. But I made the choice not to.

I'm making progress. I'm exercising. I'm making healthy decisions. I'm continuing on my journey to find me. I'm doing it one step at a time.

TGIF

Well, it is Friday, and I’m definitely ready for the weekend! It has been a very long long week. Sorry I did not actually blog yesterday but by the time I got home I was to tired to lift a finger to type. Why was I so tired you ask? I took 2 10 minute walks during work and then went to my first visit to the gym after work and did an hour of water aerobics. I actually made it through the entire class and felt very good afterwards. There were times I had no clue what I was supposed to be doing so I improvised lol! Believe me I slept very well last night.

Now on to Friday.

Most of the morning crew at work is on a diet and we are trying to support and encourage each other. Some are doing better than others of course. We are having a great time and I think we are actually making some progress as a group. Our first weigh in at work will be next Thursday. I took 2 10 minute walks today. Monday we are going to attempt to walk around the entire block. I think we are ready!

My eating has still been mostly on track. It isn’t perfect, but considering what I COULD be putting into my body I'm not going to complain...MUCH! The idea of salad makes me cringe, I need to find something healthy that is not GREEN to take to work!!