Happy January 1, 2010

Happy New Year Everyone! I hope you had a great holiday season and you are ready to embrace a new year and new decade. 2010 presents a fresh new year with three hundred and sixty-five days full of possibilities. When you look at the clean slate it presents, it’s only natural to resolve to make the most of the opportunities to come.

This year I hope to achieve the following goals.

• I’m going to be the best, loving, supportive partner that I can be for my wonderful husband and love of my life Bruce.

• I’m going to surround myself with positive people. Toxic people have no place in my life and I will not let them in, whether they are blood relations or not.

• I'm going to do what makes me happy, not what others believe I should do.

• I’m going to join a gym (again) and start going at least 3 times a week.

• I’m going to start buying healthier food (again).

• I’m going to get as close to my goal weight as possible in a safe and healthy way.

• I’m going to increase my fitness levels so I can have a great time exploring Arizona with my wonderful husband Bruce. There is so much to see and do.

• I’m going to go back to school to better myself for a more secure future.

• I’m going to take a photography class. I love photography and would like to learn all about it.

I'm feeling hopeful that my life is headed in the right direction. Moving forward I accept that I may occasionally falter in my journey. I know it will be very difficult, but I also know it will be worth it.

So Long 2009

It’s New Year’s Eve. Where has the year gone?

It is the end of a year and the end of a decade. I am very glad to say goodbye to 2009 it has been a rough year for myself and many others. I could go on and on about the many things that have happened this past year, but I’m going to keep it short and simple.

I am truly looking forward to 2010 as being a year of new beginnings, adventures and a healthy, happy me. To my husband who is my best friend and the love of my life I could not have made it through this year without you. To my friends may this new decade be a new beginning for us all and may we all find some organized chaos in our lives.

What is wrong with me?

I've been feeling a little out of sorts the past couple of days. I can't believe how cranky I am. I don't know if people are noticing or not but I can feel it! I don't want to see anyone, or talk to anyone. I want to be left alone!

I believe the main source of my moodiness is I am in a lot of pain. My left shoulder has been hurting again. It has been consistent for about 3 days and nights now. Nothing I take (tylenol, aleve, booze) helps it. I go to sleep in pain and I wake up in pain. Usually sleeping helps alleviate the pain, but not this week.

I did my last weigh in for this year yesterday. Nothing impressive but I am ending the year weighing less than when I started my journey in August.