Friday, February 29, 2008

What a Long Week

I am happy to report that Bruce is finally feeling better. He has been sick all week with the flu. His doctor has him on tons of medication and bed rest until Monday though just to make sure he is back at 100%.

It has been a very long week for me. I am working 12 nights in a row and I am currently on night 9, only 3 more to go. I am getting pretty worn down, but it will be worth it when I get my paycheck. The extra money is going to be put toward the purchase of my plane ticket to go to Pennsylvania in June and visit my beloved.

I am very excited to be going to see him this visit. I do hate flying due to my medical condition, but I plan on getting non stop tickets both ways so I don’t have to go up and down and up and down. I think I can handle one time up and one time down each direction. We will soon find out anyhow.

I look forward to meeting his daughter Sierra and seeing where he lives and works. I am also looking forward to the trip to Niagra Falls that he is planning for us. I am sure he will have many more surprises in store for me when I arrive. I have never been further north than Virginia on the east coast so this is all new and exciting for me.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Another Day in Paradise

I got off work this morning very excited that it was my "weekend". I came home did dishes, laundry, rearranged my bedroom, took a shower and piled into bed to watch all the shows I had recorded on the dvr. I finally laid down to go to sleep aroud 11:45am. About an hour later the phone was ringing and in my half awake half asleep state I was just looking for the annoying noise to make it stop. On the other end of the phone was my job asking me to work tonight. The lady who works the two nights I am off can no longer work graveyard, so guess who has a 7 day work week. I need the money so I am not complaining....much lol.

My attempt to get back on the diet wagon has been really HARD this week. I can't find anything I want to eat healthy or non healthy. Food just doesn't taste good to me right now. I think lack of sleep and depression are messing with my taste buds.

Bruce is feeling somewhat better. He still refuses to go to the doctor, but he is a grown man and is capable of making that decision. I just hope he doesn't have whatever I had.

Well that is about it for now just another day in paradise.

Monday, February 25, 2008

True Companion

What is being in love all about? Is it about caring or being cared for? Is it about loving or being loved ? Putting the other person's happiness before your own or being happy together. I am not sure of the answers to these questions, but I do know that I have now found true, real, honest love with the most wonderful man that I have ever had the honor of knowing. Look up gentleman in the dictionary and you will find a photo of him. I had given up on love before him, I was not going through the pain and rejection yet again. I didn't realize how much a chance meeting in a pogo game room in August would change my life forever. Now I do believe in fate and miracles, what are the chances that we would have found each other any other way?

He came for his second visit February 12-20 and we had the most amazing, wonderful time. We went to many places, did many exciting wonderful things and just had a great time in general. We went to the Bellagio to the atrium which was decorated for Chinese New Years, we went to The Venitan and checked out the gondola rides and we went to New York, New York so he could ride the roller coaster. One of our out of town adventures took us to Bonnie Springs an old western town in Red Rock Canyon. We also adventured to Primm, Nevada to Buffalo Bills so he could ride the roller coaster, that we found out was closed once we got there.

Valentines Day was the most amazing day. Bruce gave me the most beautiful emerald and diamond earring and a crystal bear in a little pink heart shaped box. We had the most romantic dinner and he looked so incredibly handsome. I would tell you about the rest of our evening but I am afraid I would be banned forever so you will have to use your imagination {wink}, but let just say it was earth moving. I honestly can say that I have now found my true companion.

And so the wait for June begins when I will be going to visit him.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

To my Valentine

I had vowed not to love again, because I loved too much, because I loved freely and gave freely to those who did not return that love. I had closed my heart to love, to sadness and sorrow to joy and laughter. I stayed, locked away in my safe place, unknowing, unfeeling unmoved by the beauty of the world that passed me by.

I walked alive but unseeing through life with a heart no longer beating. Then one day I found myself loving again, this time knowing what love should be. This love brings a oneness that has made me whole. It is a mysterious mystical love and I have resigned myself to the knowledge that few will understand it.

I will never stop listening to the voice of this love, but will walk through the mysteries to find it and embrace it with all that I have. There is joy and sadness with this love and there is comfort and caring It brings a rapture that fills my spirit and sings in my soul echoed by the sound of my beating heart.

My Darling Bruce you are my soulmate, my sweetheart, you are my dream come true, from now until the end of time I give my heart and soul to you. Happy Valentines Day Sweetheart.