Monday, September 27, 2010

Tales of the Scales

Starting Weight: 267.8
Todays Weight : 268.6
Weight Gain :  ↑ 0.8

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Evil Lasagna

Today was a very nice day. I slept in late (really late). After I woke up Bruce and I got dressed and went out to run some errands. First we went to the salon so I could get my bangs cut out of my eyes. I am happy to report I no longer look like a sheep dog. Then we went and check on the mechanic and the progress (or should I say lack of progress) on our car. He said it would be ready by tonight, he still has not called. Next stop was our favorite little casino to try to win a million bucks, of course we just left fifty dollars poorer. The final stop was Wal-Mart to buy some groceries. So we go in and I ask the normal questions what do we need? I got the response milk, bread, pepsi (not for me!). Then I asked my darling husband what he would like for dinner. His response was "I don't know what do you want?" I said I asked you first now what do you want for dinner. He thought a few moment then looked at me with those big puppy dog eyes and said. "Can you make some lasagna?" My head started spinning at this point! LOL!! The little voice in my head of course says "Lasagna??? Really???? OMG you didn't just ask me that now did you?!?" The good wife in me said "Of course dear".

So tonight I made lasagna for dinner for my family with a big ole bowl of salad. I was worried that I would not be able to control myself and would sit down and eat about three servings like I normally do, but I didn't. I sat down at the table with my glass of milk and had a very large serving of salad with two tablespoons of italian dressing and then had a small portion of lasagna. I am very happy to report that that one serving satisfied me and I did not blow my caloric intake for the entire day! Yay Me!!! So I am happy to report that evil lasagna is not so evil anymore!!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Hunger

So what should I blog about today?  Oh wait!! I know!!! Let talk about hunger and how I have no idea what I want to put into my body!  I am so tired of salad and baked chicken.  I have been doing very well with my Special K Protein Shake for breakfast and lunch.  Then I get home in the evening and open the refrigerator and stand there in front of it saying "What do I want" or "What can I have" that will not undo my day of being good.  The answer is usually "There is nothing in here" or "We have nothing to eat in this house" then I just sigh and bake my chicken breast and vegetables.  I guess the problem is I am bored with food.  I really do not crave sweets, chocolate, salt or fast food.   I just really don't know what I want to eat, or what I can eat that will not undo my whole calorie count for the day.

So I guess its time to search online for some new healthy food recipes. Anyone out there have any suggestions?

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Illness and Uncertainty

Its been a rough 10 days or so for me. I have been sick, I have been tired, I have been made a human pin cushion and I have cried. I have actually cried a lot, about what it could be, might be, will be. So the day arrives and I get back all my blood test and everything they tested for is in the normal range. My cholesterol is down to 150 from 220, my glucose is down to 75 from 113, I have no infections, and everything else looks great! So I ask, why am I still sick? My friends are throwing around things like fibromyagia, lupus, and chronic fatigue syndrome.

Of course along with all this illness and uncertainty has come stress. Stress equals EATING. I have gotten off track with my diet and have been getting no exercise due to lack of energy. Now when I say off track I am not eating everything in sight but I have been bad. I had home made taco salad last night and let me tell you it tasted heavenly! I am certain I did not go over my calories by very much if at all, but I was weak and I am ashamed of that.

I'm sorry but aren't you suppose to begin to feel better once you start losing weight?

Monday, September 20, 2010

Hanging in There

I’m not sure what to say. The last week has been extremely difficult for me. Weight wise, I have been eating everything in sight. It’s not attractive, and I’m pretty disgusted with myself. I hate everything, my mirror, my weight, my actual life.

Starting Weight: 266.8
Todays Weight : 267.8
Weight Gain :  ↑ 1.0

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Life Happens

Tomorrow is my first day back to work and is also my first weigh in after being so sick. I am anxious to see what my illness and the extra stress did to my weight this week.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Monday?!? Again?!? Really?!?!

Starting Weight: 274.0
Todays Weight : 266.8
Weight Loss : ↓ 7.2

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Crawling back onto the wagon

Starting Weight: 272.6
Todays Weight : 274.0
Weight Gain :  ↑ 1.4

I had a nice three day weekend. It started Friday night at Buffalo Wild Wings with my husband Bruce. After dinner we went to see Jeff Dunham perform at Caesar's Palace. His show was excellent as always. It was my husbands first time to see him live and my fourth time :) My only complaint is the seats were very UNCOMFORTABLE. They were definately not fat friendly. I was wedged in this seat for 2 hours and thought it was going to take the jaws of life to remove me. Come on Ceasar's Palace for the ticket prices you charge the least you could do is have comfortable seating!

Saturday we went to a buffet and did some gambling. I won for a change which was nice and I didn't actually do to bad at the buffet. The rest of my weekend consisted of housework and laundry.

Monday we took a picnic lunch and went to Valley of Fire National Park in Overton, Nevada. It was beautiful scenery and we spent about 5 hours hiking and taking photos. Of course the picnic consisted of things I should not be eating, but since it was a holiday I gave in and ate it. I know I should not be eating this stuff but sometimes it is so hard to resist. I rationalized that with all the extra walking I would "work it off". "No apologies. No excuses." It is what it is. A mistake.

So this morning I woke up determined to get back on track. I am going to try the Special K protein shake for breakfast and lunch and then a sensible dinner plan this week and see how I do. I also have a refrigerator full of apples, oranges, grapes, and salad makings.

So wish me luck for this new week of challenges, temptations, excuses and failures.