Happy New Years Eve

Just want to say that I will be glad to put 2011 behind me and I look forward to 2012.   I have great plans for  2012 and I look forward to watching them unfold!   I hope everyone is safe tonight no matter how you are celebrating the last day of the year.  I will be spending it at home with Bruce on the couch having a couple of drinks and watching the fireworks on television.

Today was a so-so day with the eating and a terrible day for exercise.  My right foot is absolutely killing me but I did get out and attempt to walk.  I didn't make it a mile but I did walk!  I feel good about that.

BREAKFAST

None

LUNCH

None

DINNER

Pepper Steak

Salad

12 oz of Pepsi

WATER

100-120 ounces

EXERCISE

Completed a 0.89 mile walking activity.  (Day 6)

Still pushing through the pain

Every morning, the opportunity to make healthy choices and do the right thing presents itself.

Every morning, I must make a conscious effort to make positive changes in my life.
Every morning, I must choose to love myself enough to let myself succeed.

BREAKFAST

None

LUNCH

None

DINNER

Ham Sandwich

Serving of Potato Chips

2 Tablespoons of Dip

Lemonade Crystal Light 

WATER

60-70 ounces

EXERCISE

Completed a 1.16-mile walking activity.  (Day 5)

Pain Pain go away

I didn't feel well today and it shows below.   Just feeling sick and my right foot and left hip are hurting.

BREAKFAST

Ham and Egg Omelet - 300 calories

LUNCH

DINNER

Spaghetti and Meatsauce

WATER

60-70 ounces

EXERCISE

Completed a 1.16-mile walking activity.  (Day 4)

Control

I seem to be gaining control over my water intake and also over my exercise.  The next step and the hardest step will be gaining control over my food addiction.  I love food which is no secret or surprise, but I must learn to have a healthy relationship with it.  2012 is going to be my year just you wait and see!!

BREAKFAST

Ham Biscuit

1 Can of Mt Dew 

LUNCH

None

DINNER

2 Nathan Hotdogs
Serving of Lay's Potato Chips
Glass of Milk 

WATER

100-120 ounces

EXERCISE

Completed a 1.15-mile walking activity. (Day 3)

I Binged Tonight

I don't always eat the best food for my body but, tonight it was REAL ugly. A what you may ask could be "that" bad. Let me introduce Del Taco's Macho Nachos!!

Yes I really put that into my body.  The sad thing is I did not enjoy it, well maybe it actually is a good thing so in the future I will avoid it.  Now on to the shocking nutritional facts:

Yes that says 1000 calories.  I was in utter shock when I went searching for the calories of this fiasco of a meal!  I am not dwelling on this because it is not going to do anything but make me want to binge more, but I am going to file this information in the lessons learned folder.

BREAKFAST

Ham and Egg Omelet - 300 calories

2 dry toast - 200 calories

LUNCH

NONE

DINNER

Turkey
Dressing
Green Beans
Cranberry Sauce
2 Sugar Cookies

MIDNIGHT BINGE

Del Taco's Macho Nachos

WATER

100-110 ounces

EXERCISE

Completed a 1.13-mile walking activity.  (Day 2)

If I Really Want To Succeed

Then why do I continue to fail?  There is a part of me that truly believes that I will reach my ideal healthy weight. But there is also a part of me that thinks that I never will and I am just kidding myself.  Why do I lose weight and then gain it back again?  Why is this so hard for me?  Is there really a thin body inside all of this fat?  Can this body ever be the body that I or others will desire?  Why does weight loss continue to elude me?  These are questions I have found myself asking a lot lately.  I really wish I had the answers but unfortunately, I do not.  I am still searching for these answers like I am still searching for myself.

EXERCISE

Completed a 1.11-mile walking activity. (Day 1)

Merry Christmas

Thank God the scariest holiday for people watching their weight is over!  I will not post a blow by blow but lets just say it could have been a whole lot worse!  So starting tomorrow it is time to get back to exercising and food tracking.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!

To Tired To Think

I am too tired to think of anything clever to say tonight so you are just getting a boring food journal.

BREAKFAST

1 package of oatmeal - 100 calories

2 packs of equal - 0 calories

2 tablespoons of milk - 50 calories

10 ounces diet Pepsi - 0 calories

SNACK

10 ounces of V8 - 75 calories 

LUNCH

Greek Salad - 150 calories

2 small pieces of steak -  150 calories

2 small pieces of chicken - 100 calories

1/2 cup white rice - 160 calories

DINNER

Large Salad - 0 calories

1 serving of croutons - 30 calories

1/4 cup shredded cheddar - 110 calories

2 Tablespoons Thousand Island - 140 calories 

WATER

40-50 ounces

EXERCISE

I walked a few laps around Walmart does that count? 

Goals Revisted

One of the biggest reasons diets fail is we don’t believe we can achieve our goal. One way to help us believe is to set short-term goals we know we can achieve. Once we’ve achieved these goals we will feel empowered which will motivate us to set newer and bigger goals. The hope is to have a snowball effect until we wake up one day and realize we’ve created several healthy habits that we can keep for the rest of our life.

Way back in March I listed the following short term goals:

1. Walk 30 minutes a day ~~Accomplished
2. Drink 64-70 ounces of water a day. ~~Accomplished
3. Cut out all soda (currently drinking 1-2 cans of diet Pepsi a day) ~~Accomplished
4. Be able to wear the nursing scrubs they sell at Walmart. (Silly but personal) ~~ Epic Fail
5. Walk 5K "Race for the Cure" on May 7, 2011. ~~ Epic Fail due to major illness

As you can see I accomplished 3 of the 5 which for me was a great accomplishment.  Then in May, I had a major illness and everything went out the window.   So here we are with two weeks left in 2011 and I have decided to get a jump start on 2012.   So my short term goals to complete by January 31, 2012

1. Walk 30 minutes a day 5 times a week. ~~Accomplished
2. Drink 64-70 ounces of water a day. ~~Accomplished
3. Cut out all soda (currently drinking 1-2 cans of Pepsi/Mt Dew a day). ~~Accomplished
4. No eating after 8:00pm. ~~Accomplished
5. Lose 10 pounds. (268.0 starting weight)  ~~Accomplished

My long term goals to complete by May 9, 2012

1. Be able to wear the nursing scrubs they sell at Walmart. (Silly but personal) ~~Accomplished
2. Lose 40 pounds. (268.0 starting weight). ~~Nope
3. Walk 5K "Race for the Cure" on May 5, 2012. ~~Accomplished

There is a difference between giving up and not moving forward. I anticipate moving forward again.

BREAKFAST

1 package of oatmeal - 100 calories

2 packs of equal - 0 calories

2 tablespoons of milk - 50 calories

10 ounces diet Pepsi -  0 calories

SNACK

8 ounces V8 - 50 calories 

DINNER

Large Salad - 0 calories

1 serving of croutons - 30 calories

1/4 cup shredded cheddar - 110 calories

2 Tablespoons Thousand Island = 140 calories

10 ounces diet Pepsi - 0 calories

SNACK

8 ounces V8 - 50 calories

EXERCISE

Completed a 1.10-mile walking activity.

 

Put One Foot In Front Of The Other

Happy Monday Everyone!  Today was day 3 of being back on track.   I ate well, drank well, and walked 2.16 miles. Man do my legs hurt but in the long run, it will be worth it.  No Pain, No Gain!

BREAKFAST

1 package of oatmeal  - 100 calories

2 packs of equal - 0 calories

2 tablespoons of milk -  50 calories

1 can of Pepsi - 150 calories

SNACK 

1/2 chocolate chip cookie - 50 calories

LUNCH

Progresso Chicken and Wild Rice - 200 calories

Bagel - 110 calories

DINNER

Large Salad - 0 calories

1/2 cup croutons - 65 calories
1/4 cup shredded cheddar - 110 calories
2 Tablespoons Thousand Island - 140 calories

WATER

89 ounces

EXERCISE

Completed a 1.15-mile walking activity.

Completed a 1.01-mile walking activity.

You got to move it move it!

I have finally added exercise back to my daily routine. The goal now is to keep it up!  Except for some right foot issues again I am feeling well, I am not very winded when walking the two trips around the lot, I think tomorrow I will try for three and see what happens.

My weight is hovering at it normal place between 265-270.  At the current time I have not really been focused or trying because of illness and the holidays.  I’m stressed. But who isn’t?  I realize that I haven’t really allowed myself to really feel anything lately. I’ve just been numb. It’s affecting everything, but mainly my weight loss. I’m just barely maintaining. I plan on getting on track after the New Year and hitting ONEderland hopefully by my birthday in May.  It is nice to have goals.