Monday, March 31, 2008

Things continue to just get better

Took mom to her new doctor Friday. He is a very nice gentlemen unlike the last jerk she was seeing. He looked at all my mothers mri records and medical records from her primary care doctor and said it is very obvious by my mother’s mri that her previous back fusion is crumbling and she must have a back fusion immediately or there is a chance she will not be able to walk. We have to schedule another test where they inject dye into her back to see where all the damage is and then we will be getting the surgery scheduled. This is going to be a 8-10 month process at best.

I am really stressing about this because I don’t like leaving mother alone while I work since she has already fell once, but I have to work since I am the only one bringing home an income. Her so called boyfriend is a jerk, and my sister is a jerk and neither offer any assistance in this. I have a couple of friends who have offered to lend me a hand while I am working and I have been making friends with a woman at work who has offered to give me a hand with my mother once she gets home from surgery.

Bruce is still my shoulder to cry on and my source of encouragement and support. I don’t know what I would do without him right now.

I am off to bed now and hopefully I will wake up tomorrow and this will all be a very bad dream. . .

Thursday, March 27, 2008


They say that adversity can be a valuable teacher, allowing us to emerge from our pain stonger than before. I am sure that this is the case but right now it just doesn't feel like it. I am tired, really tired. I have been unable to sleep at night due to stress, worry, and of course sinuses from this wonderful pollen shower that we are under right now. I have not seen pollen this bad in a very long time.

There have been major changes at my job, the old manager is gone the new manager has been put into place and she is doing an awesome job. Things are finally moving forward and things are getting done. I got promoted to swing shift supervisor so I had to adjust my body to a new sleep schedule, which has been difficult at best.

My mother is off work again and once again attempting to have back surgery the vertebrea that was pinching the nerve has shifted and she has no other option this time if she wants to be able to feel her legs and feet. She is heavily medicated, non fuctional and thinks ice cream and reeses cups are the only food that exsists. Due to her condition I am again the sole money maker and I have to worry about that on a daily basis.

Bruce is having a pretty bad time right now also, so my trip has been placed on hold until there is a little more certainty in his life. He has some very hard important decision to make, and I will be here to support him every step of the way. I love him with every fiber of my being.

I must find a balance somewhere
or an alternating rhythm
between these two extremes:
A swinging of the pendulum between solitude and communion
Between retreat and return.
In my periods of retreat
Perhaps I can learn something to carry back into my worldly life.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Deja Vu

This is obviously just not my month. I got home last night from work around 11:15pm and flopped down on the couch with my remote to watch my recording of Days of our Lives. Much to my surprise as I am sure you have guessed by now MY CABLE IS OFF AGAIN! Can we say BEYOND PISSED?!?!?! I just paid you over $200.00 two weeks ago and you have yet again mistakenly disconnected my service?!?!?! So of course I pick up the phone and I call the number knowing that they are closed until 7am.

Well I am still beyond pissed so I call tech support they are open 24/7. I feel so sorry for this poor kid that answered my call. I said can you tell me if there is an outage in my area. He checks and comes back and says "No Ma'am your service has been disconnected." To which I reply "Can you tell me why?" He studies my account and say "No ma'am I can not you are not behind in your payments it must have been a computer clitch." Of course he can't turn my cable back on because he is "Just Tech Support".

Well I am about ready to "Just take my money elsewhere!!"

Direct TV is starting to look REALLY good right now!!

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

This is a rant. Continue at your own risk

I awoke this morning around 3am and had no cable or internet to my surprise since I knew I paid the bill last (02/23) Monday. So I get on the phone to call them and get the recording that "customer service will not be available until 7am". So you can mistakenly turn my cable off at 3am, but there is no one to turn it back on?? WTF!! Obviously someone is there or my cable and internet would not be OFF!!

Well 7am arrives and I call the cable company and am placed on hold for 10-15 minutes and finally this woman answers who sounds like someone pissed in her cornflakes this morning. This is not a good thing since I am already in a very foul mood. She pulls up my account and informs me my payment was returned for INSUFFICENT FUNDS, and now to get my service restored I have to pay last month and this months bill. This would be ok except for the fact that I know I have well over $100.00 more in my account than what has been paid out. I tell her this can't be possible there is money in my bank for this payment. She rudely informs me I need to take it up with my bank and hangs up in my face.

I go to the bank I do a balance check, yep just as I said there is plenty of money in my account. I call customer service back get a different lady who is alot nicer than the first one but she can't offer anymore information except my payment was returned for INSUFFICENT FUNDS and that the department I need to speak with will be in at 8am to get further information. Fine I take the number and I steam a little longer waiting for 8am.

At 8am I call the number given to me by the second lady and get now my third person to talk to regarding this. I sound like a broken record "Hi my cable and internet has been disconnected, I paid my bill last week, I don't understand, there must be an error because there is money in my account..yada yada yada.." It is at this time I am informed that my payment was returned yesterday due to "Not a valid Account"! Ok this is alot different than insufficent funds in my book. The person who took my payment wrote a number down wrong and of course the payment was returned. Gave her the correct number, the payment has been posted (I checked) and all is right in my world again.

But don't you think it would have been nice for someone to call and tell me about this problem BEFORE they turned off my service????

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Its my Friday, Its my Friday, Finally!!

We interrupt your regularly scheduled program for this important announcement.

It's my Friday!!!! Wooooo Hooooo!!

We now return you to your regularly scheduled program...