Up on the roof there arose such a clatter!

No it isn't Santa making an early deliver, its just the maintenance men on the rooftop again working on the roof. This is the second morning in a row they have woke me up by 7:00am. I did not sleep well last night so I was not very happy by this development. Perfect way to start of this very BAD day.

I am still trying to get financial aid to start school next month. I went to the college on Tuesday with my income tax return and W2 for 2008 and filled out a ton of forms and paperwork. So imagine my frustration this morning when I found an email saying they needed me to come to the college and fill out a form that I had filled out on Tuesday. So I spent an hour on the phone with them trying to get that straightened out. I still have to go and take a assessment (entrance) exam before the end of this month and then pick my classes.

My eating has been crazy the past week. I am premenstrual, menopausal, cranky and nothing I eat satisfies my hunger. I am bloated and I am miserable and unhappy with the way I look and feel. I look in the mirror and I see my beautiful face, eyes and hair, but then I see the rolls of my stomach, my huge ass, and the cellulite on my thighs and I am reminded of how far I have let myself go. I don't want to be trapped in my own body any longer. I must get back on track and take control of my life.

Where do I begin?

Starting Weight: 263.5

Today's Weight : 271.5

Weight Gain :  ↑ 8.0

A lot has happened since I last blogged here with all you nice people. The most major change is that my husband and I have moved from Las Vegas, Nevada to Tucson, Arizona. We had to get away from all the negativity that was in Las Vegas, from so-called friends to crazy family members. We have a wonderful family here and a great support network and people who really love and care about us and are not just looking to use us for their own selfish needs.

On the downside, the economy is no better here than it is anywhere else in the country. Neither of us has been able to find work and my husband just entered tier three of his unemployment which means we have 20 more weeks and then there is no more. I have been applying for every cook, cashier, operator, customer service job I can find and so far absolutely NOTHING.

I made a decision last week to return to school and pursue my degree in Health Information Technology. When I am done I hope to get a job working in a doctor's office environment.

Needless to say, all this is causing me a great deal of worry and stress. Nothing sends me toward food faster than stress, worry, and disappointment. So no surprise I have gained 8 pounds since my last weigh-in. So here I am again starting again on this journey with more determination than ever. I can do this, I was doing this, I just have to make the conscious decision that it is now time.

My New Life

Well a lot has happened in my life since my last blog entry. I finally quit my job and got myself out of the bad environment that I was living in. Its amazing how much you find out about someone when you are forced to live and work with them everyday. Lets just say I learned who my friends are and most important who they AREN'T.

Bruce (my husband) and I have moved to Tucson, Arizona. He was raised here and most of his family is here so we have a great support network. Sadly we had no support network in Las Vegas since me and my mother and sister had our huge falling out in June.

We have both been unable to find work yet but we are hopeful. It takes time, and hey we have nothing but time lol! I have also been looking into school which may be an option too. I just ain't sure the ole gal has it in her to go back to school. Heck do I remember how to study?